Sleep or lack thereof.
The all-knowing day say that when you have a song going around and round and round in your head that it's because your brain is trying to protect you from something you're trying to remember, process or think about. Although it's best for everyone considered a 30-plus year relationship has bit the dust. I finally got off the merry-go-round, and the relief was instantaneous. However, it does make me sad thinking and I will never again be touched, loved, smile that, or feel any passion for the rest of my life. This relationship has put me off of every trusting, spending time with, for getting to know another human being with any intimacy. On the positive side I no longer have to wait for the explosions, wonder if today is the day things will end, my partner will leave, or hurtful words will be flung in my face. The icy cold demeanor we have affected because financially we have to stay at living in the same house is a blessing. Many people would say it's a horror show and